It's my 28th birthday today. 28 years old…sometimes I feel much older, other times I can hardly believe I am at this stage of my life already. Don't get me wrong I am not freaked out by it (I'm leaving that until I hit 30!), it just seems in some ways that my twenties have zipped by without me noticing. I'm not a big birthday person and this one is going to be quiet, it's always an awkward week as the bank holiday means friends go on holiday or have plans already, so it will be a quiet day with Mr Lovely. Perfect.
Yesterday I took some time to review the past year - it's the one annual tradition I have. It was a big year, full of change, new experiences and shifting relationships. I started my business and even better I made money from my business. What had been a dream for several years became a reality and although I have a way to go to craft it into what I want, I'm doing it. I also became clear about the direction I want my main blog, Little Tiny Pieces to take which resulted in setting up this personal blog for my general ramblings. I met with a fellow blogger, reached out to others in the community through button swaps, advertising and guest posts and began to develop my strategy. It's a work in progress, as always.
I wrote a lot this year. Blog posts, emails and letters, journal pages, pages of my future book, ecourses and workbooks. Hundreds of blank pages filled with my scribblings. I learnt to love the process of letting my words flow onto the page and the satisfaction of a story forming. It's a sort of therapy I guess, a way of staying grounded and connecting with others. It's slowly becoming a bigger part of future plans.
I fell in love. Mr Lovely came into my life and my world was turned upside down (in a good way). I learnt what it really means to be in an adult relationship, I learnt to let go of the past, I learnt to let someone love me. Not always easy, but always worth the effort. I have laughed, cried, kissed, cuddled, talked. I became part of a family and I am so thankful to have Mr L and two amazing children in my life, I feel so privileged they have let me be a part of theirs. I moved and began to feel settled once more.
I tried new things and made new memories- baking bread, wine tasting, coding a website completely from scratch, eating a burger in the rain in the middle of Green Park at night. I did things I hadn't done for a really long time - visited the Cinema, started scrapbooking again, rekindled a love for tomatoes, visited the seaside, remembered how much music is a part of my life.
Of course, the "big family thing" happened, it's not fair to talk about it here as I have to respect the privacy of those involved but I learnt a lot from it. I learnt to let go of unrealistic ideals, I learnt that I value those who take their responsibilities seriously, I learnt that when it really comes down to it I can be stronger than I think. I also came to believe that the "dark seasons" of life are the gateway for something greater. They are necessary in order for us to recognise the seasons of opportunity that life also throws our way.
I discovered what is important to me - relationships and friendships, health, being creative. I got frustrated with unrealised potential and being held back by fear, I was inspired by those who turned their ideas in reality. I realised the value in achieving work/life balance.
My 27th year has been good to me and I hope my 28th will be even better!
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